Rawr, rawr.
5:50 PM - Friday, January 29, 2010
2 weeks. Not enough.
Everything. Is so busy. Right now.
In the past month... I had a chem test, a physics test, a maths test, a bio test, a chinese test, a social studies test, an english test, a chem SPA, and a bio SPA. Oh, literature too.
Tell me. Busy or what?
I need to. Relax.
Not.
I can't.
I feel that I am beginning to get into this continuous cycle of test. test. worksheet. practice. test. exam. homework. Somehow this cycle makes me caught up with school, making me feel as if I'm doing enough for the big Os. But I know it's not enough!
I think I am those kind of people who feels at ease doing those kind of stuff. Because I know that I feel guilty when I find myself not doing anything productive.
A part of my brain tells me to relax, do your normal thing (study the day before and pass reasonably) and continue reading that book, oh that book cunningly seducing you. After all, there are months to go, and surely it cannot be that hard, CAN IT?
And the other part of brain counts away the seconds that I'm slowly draining away not doing anything productive, like familiarising myself with the formulas and equations and devices that needs to be mastered. Or practising maths, or doing undone homework.
It's so hard.
I just hope that I don't lose those dreams before I get to them.
MY (all kinds of) DREAMS:
1. To contribute to humanity in some way or another. Volunteering, yes.
- I don't know, but I just feel that there needs to be more good in this world, in places like Africa - where clean water is a privilege, where one third (or one quarter, can't remember) of the population get AIDS, where malnutrition is as common as flu, where children do not have their childhoods, when the corruption prospers.
It would be of utmost cliché, but the situation is really bad. And things of the Taliban, I know not of it but well...
People watch devastating news on the TV then go, "Oh look at this... Darling, it's so sad. Poor kids... " then continue eating their dinners, their contributions towards the situation accomplished by two sympathetic sentences. I wish to do more.
2. To have 30 hours in a day. So that I could sleep better.
3. To be well-read! Not those silly young adult books like twilight o_o
- Books or plays like Shakespeare, John Webster...? One thing I realised, Asian biographies are very nice too, like 'Chinese cinderella' or 'Memoirs of the Geisha'. Very close to home.
4. Travel.
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夜已深了，我就此搁笔。余言后续。
LOL. It's 6:45pm :x
Fourth day of... school.
7:39 PM - Thursday, January 7, 2010
Be proud of me - I survived the first 4 days of being a sec 4!
Today started with a very negative note, because I planned to wake up at 3am to finish all my homework but I didn't hear the alarm ring, so I continued sleeping till 5.40am. It's even later than the time where I usually wake up. Had a headache also.
So I rushed to school (but Lynn was taking a long time, so I was pissed off also) then it rained super heavily all of a sudden when we were on our way to school. Talk about being unlucky.
LUCKILYYYYY, some kind but not kind lady thrust her umbrella to me, asking me to throw the umbrella after I finish using it, cos it was spoilt and she didn't want it. So... I suddenly have an umbrella :D
Stellina was jealous. Haha! Then well, I realised I forgot to bring my tie, but I survived the whole day without any mention of it from any teacher. Wondrous, in my opinion o_o
So yeah. *cheered up*
I shan't use the computer as often as I did during the holidays. *nods head* Most probably you wouldn't be hearing from me soon cos I gotta do my work and prepare for OOOOOOOOOs.
Oreos.
2:14 AM - Sunday, January 3, 2010
Sometimes, I don't know.
Or maybe it'll be better if I don't acknowledge, lest something happens again.
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Don't you sometimes feel that you don't have a proper place to tell how you really feel? Without losing someone's first impression, or anyone feeling anything insulted or sad.
I don't like it when I need to rephrase my words to have the correct hint or feel - to not make it sound too crude, to not make it feel as if it's something else. For the best of everyone.
What kind of dream is this?
10:31 PM - Saturday, January 2, 2010
Oh my. Realisation hit me like a slap across the face - One more day to enjoy before school starts officially. Something in my head tells me that this is fake, and to continue leading my life of using the computer to surf the net.
Well, well, well. This year would be the year of the "MOST INCOMPLETE HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENTS EVER". *blames ELDDS conveniently*
Wonder how the teachers are going to deal with me. I hate it when they give more work for you to do when you don't hand in your work on time-.- So the whole vicious cycle repeats again.
Oh oh, I haven't touched my chinese at all. Sigh. I don't like procrastination.
I told myself to work on my English at 5pm, but a repeat of Singapore Idol Finals was showing, so I gave myself a break (before I even started on any work for the day) until 7pm. At 7pm, my mum asked me if I want to go cut hair with her, so I told myself, why not? We went shopping a little and came back at 8.30. I switched on the comp habitually when I came back and told myself, 10pm would be the time to start on my Holiday Assignments. It's 10.42 now.
Maybe I'll do my homework tomorrow instead.
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See what I mean? -.-
Blueberry pie!
7:33 PM - Thursday, December 31, 2009
Coversation with Rayen:
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOl
WTF
!!
imma ask u to imagine something sick
YOU IMAGINE
o_o
*someone* fucking a spider
SOUDNS WRONG!!
LOL
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
o_o
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
o_o
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
it's so small.
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
yes
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
LOL
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
thats the point
LOl
HAHA
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
cannot fuck uh o_o
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
o_o
imagine if he cants
can*
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
huh
can't imagine XD
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] writes:
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOl
WETF
HAHAHA
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
LOL
OMG
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
HAHAHAHa
CAN NOW?
CAN NOW!!!
LOL
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
HAAHAH
BIG SPIDER?
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
DAMN FUCKING HUGE!!
!!
LOL
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
HAHAHAHA
OKAY
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOL
CANNOT
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
YEAH
SO
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
ALRDY
LOL
HAHAHA
WRONG
LOl
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
huhhhhhhhh
*lost*
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
o_o
the image
looks wrong
D:
as if
he's gonna fuck the spider
sob
poor spider
=(
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
LOL
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOL
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
poisonous spider?
XD
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
ouh noes
he may become spider man!!
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
LOL
HAHAHAA
"HOW DID YOU BECOME SPIDERMAN?"
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] writes:
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOL
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
"I TRIED TO MAKE LOVE TO THE SPIDER."
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
I FUCKED A SPIDER
D:
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
HAHAHA
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOL
HAHAHA
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
LOOKED LIKE A PIE
[b][c=0][a=1]/P S Y C H I C[/a][/c][/b] says:
LOL!!
NOOO ITS SPIDER MAN!!
ʇǝbpıɹq BLASPHEMOUS! says:
BLUEBERRY PIE!
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Conclusion: Rayen is sick. LOL. So am I.
How true...
5:53 PM - Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Hey there. Welcome to my blog. It's your luck today, because I have decided for this blog post to be a very special, important one. (I realised I sound like Tok Dalang LOL.)
"If you want to know where your heart is, look at where your mind goes when it wanders."
Taking a big break from my holiday assignments. Actually... I haven't really gotten INTO the holiday assignments, but that's besides the point.
I think this would be the last blogpost I would make in 2oo9, so I shall hereby sum up this year within this blog post, filled with random quotes and pictures I have found along the way. So... Enjoy.
"The nicest thing for me is to sleep, then at least I can dream." - Marilyn Monroe
Firstly, I would like to say that 2oo9 has really been a great year for me. I made so many new friends (:D), so many new experiences (hmm XD), AND well... Made new discoveries. You know, this year seemed so short to me, because so many stuff has been happening around.
And copying Rayen, I would like to thank EVERYBODY.
YOU, special person, have helped me. Whether you're a good friend who checks out my blog regularly, a not-so-good friend who just managed to chance upon this fateful entry, I would like to thank even people who don't read this blog (because I know plenty of people who don't), pure strangers, famous people, everybody.
So I would like to thank you because you have been on this path; journey, to help someone know something more about this world (:
2009 has been a year of self-discovery, I daresay. I mean, I have realised many things about myself and things about the world, and I have gained remarkable insight on this topic on 'Relationships', especially. *cough cough* XD (that aside...)
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep; because your reality is finally better than your dreams." - Dr. Seuss
Well. I have successfully lived for another year. I feel so proud of myself. But then again, thinking how many people in this world doing the same thing... Never mind. This year is supposed to be the year of hard-work and immense labour, towards the goal of academic achievements.
Looking back at what I wrote, I realised how bad that sounds. I absolutely have no life o_o Haha but anyway that's what THE society expects of me, so I guess I must heed it's strict rules to become an acknowledged member of the society *scoffs*
I shall say that I haven't really done that well in that aspect... But whatever. I learnt much more that what textbooks and endless TYS-es have to offer, so how's that? I think that the main purpose to studying or education is to contribute to the advancements of the human kind, but also not forgetting one's own personal goal fulfilment.
But I feel that as we grow older, this concept becomes more confusing and morphs into which path to go, how much that path would pay, and so on so forth.
Sigh. Okay. I shall stop going about ranting about this notion again.
"The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - which you have thought special and particular to you. And now, here it is, set down by a person you have never met before, someone even who is dead. It is as if a hand has come out, and taken yours." -Alan Bennett
Happy new year, by the way.
"You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly."
"Someone who thinks that death is the scariest thing... Doesn't know a thing about life." - Sue Monk Kidd
1:03 PM
Homework to complete by 30/12/09:
- A math Unit 4 on Simultaneous
- One EL P2 (with summary)
- One CL compre?
or
- One lit essay
- Half of bio?
I don't know~ wish me luck o_o
